At school today was like yesterday ... as the day before yesterday ... and like any other day in my life.Maybe if the date of 29 December 1994 there was better for everybody, from which no longer suffered as suffer now.For example, a girl I have a girlfriend that you can base anytime, you no longer have the heart crushed because I "pushed her" to the wrong people who have mocked it. the most important person in my life (in addition to the mother), who was with me, the moment that we met, we now suffer and he just my fault ... If I do not enter into his life, no more arguing with the girl he loves huge and would do anything just to know that it is good and safe ...If I wasn't around, he can no longer argue with this girl and there was no accident in which can now no longer on this earth ... ...Finally, there is no point to go into details about it.I get home where I see my mother crying, I tried to calm that I can tell you what happened, but did not answer. raised face, and her eyes full of lacrmi I realized immediately.I walked outside to look for me the only puppy that was left alive ... have passed 20 minutes till I found ... but it was far too late.The last of the three puppies, who left now ... and he's dead. In that moment I felt how come the sky over me, especially as it was and my favorite! I'm sure this innocent soul died because of me, because everything that has been put on me to get it.Many times I sat and I wondered: why everyone you love suffer or ... dies due to me?Perhaps because they are a nuisance and I was brought into the world to bring only trouble and problems.Maybe it would be better to disappear from this world full of hate and enmity only to be better loved ones.But given their something bad happen, better me ... because I do not want to see so much suffering around me!!!